I muddled through the worship okay (some lip syncing was required for a few high notes) and hopefully no one heard me too well! The duet in both services went super well. I shared before the song what we did for the ladies luncheon and how God had given me a vision for this song/video. Not a vision in a way that He showed it to me, but that when I heard the song I knew it would be perfect for Costa and that a video with the spanish words would be great for the spanish speaking audience. I had shared this idea with Jennifer (who sings regularly at our church) and she highly encouraged me to sing it with me (assuming I could sing). I did have a strong sense that God wanted this as I have felt this over the past few years but denied it due to fear. Some of you would remember that I gave my tesimony at MOMS group a couple of years ago and said these words "God gave me visions of praying with people, speaking in front of people and even singing...yes scary...um no" and I summed it up with something Beth Moore says in her Esther study "As much as my flesh wanted relief, I knew that when all was said and done, I'd sit on that side of glory having much rather fulfilled my calling than served myself all the way to meaningless. I had to accept that I was not called to an easy life. I was called to a purposeful life". Isn't it cool to see something like that come to fruition? I am doing what I said I thought God wanted me to do 2 years ago!
So I had been praying that God just help me get through it without puking, passing out, or wetting my pants (or skirt in this case) and that I really did want it to sound good and not mess it up. I was feeling bad that my request was probably more about me than it was to glorify God but I trusted God to do with it what He wanted. I learned in my summer study that God will provide abundantly more than we ask for. We should pray "God do this...or something better"...and that it says in Ephesians 3:20 "Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely (abuntantly, immeasurably) more than we might ask or think of". What a perfect example of this He provided in my life. I prayed for the basics and He delivered more than I could have asked. How? I cannot believe the outpour of encouragement I got before and after singing that song. I was completely petrified going into it but the Lord asked me to trust Him. I did and thought if I just did it to glorify Him, that it would be good enough, but he abundantly answered my prayers of "just getting through" by putting it on the hearts of so many to send and say encouraging, real things to me. He answered that prayer above and beyond anything I could think or imagine! Here are some things I heard:
- The song was the topic of conversation on our way home from church
- I know you were nervous about this morning, but you did great! Your song w/ Jen was very well done and glorifying to God!! (Also I'm a bit envious of your intonation, which is like, perfect ;) Keep on singing, sister!
- You have a strong country-like voice and did a great job
On a side note, I have been talking with my children about doing things they sometimes don't want to do because it is glorifying to God. Even when it's mommy asking them to do it, and they don't want to, but they do it anyways, they are glorifying God by obeying. I gave Reece the example of me singing. I told her how scary it was for me and that I didn't really want to do it but I felt God did. She said "Mom, you shouldn't be scared to do that...those people watching didn't want you to be scared!". How nice!